janet's journey

I thought it time that I actually wrote down my thoughts, dreams, and hopes. Perhaps share some of what I've learned. Maybe someone will be encouraged, comforted (Life is better in community), or just amused.

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Tuesday, May 22, 2012

a neW normaL

Yeah, it's all backwards.
Sometimes life just seems like that.

I recently went to the doctor, a specialist. Someone that likes to solve medical mysteries.
Well, he didn't do anything with my medical mystery. Just said, "This is your new normal."
Really?
Seriously?
No plan? No new research? Not even a potential name for this ailment? The usual medicines didn't work. Surgery is too dangerous, not worth the risks, based on the little evidence that it would be beneficial.
So fatigue, along with other rather nebulous symptoms, are my new normal. Well, I should at least celebrate the fact that they found no indications of cancer. What makes it so hard to celebrate is this suspended place in medical fog that doesn't allow me to work, or feel energetic past 10am. Since I obviously can't count on man,  I'd better get my eyes on the Man that gave me a new normal worth celebrating.
On January 15, 1980, Christ Jesus showed me my normal. I was a selfish, self-absorbed little ball of fear. I was a mess that wasn't going to live very long like I was. So that night alone in a hospital ICU room, I came into agreement that I was wrong and HE is right. He gave me a new normal. I lost my taste and appetite for some vices right away. I gained a heart of praise. Some vices took longer to let go of. It took just as long for me to learn love the light.
2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! 
And how about this one!
Isaiah 43:19
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. 
How is that for a new normal?! Life before Christ was a definite waste. A giant waste of time, talents, and energy. While my physical energy is diminished, my emotional and spiritual energies are at an all time high. My spirit is more vibrant than ever. While I am not at all sure about God's details concerning this new normal, I know they are His details and He is in control. My Jesus is yet on the throne and working out something new on my behalf. Trust.
Oh, my, trust is a new normal for me, that's sure. I've spent alot of my life not sure who I can really trust. The only one that I need to trust is my Jesus. My Christ.
My new, fresh, wonderful Normal.